as Freud suggested we all have suppressed emotions whether they be mental, verbal or even sexual & that we should in essence blurt them out with zero regard for censorship.  inside that realm the "civil" may actually be ludicrous & the "tactful" simply cowards.  i'm sure it is easy to comprehend that it takes an open mind to appreciate and/or embrace the bizarre but it begs the question what is bizarre ??  we all have our own personal definitions.

(for instance) bizarre to me is the fake blank glare smiles i see in typical American family photos.  the emptiness in the eyes is striking.  it's like a lucite saddlebag of "happiness" & the dry stale resin is dripping off the photo paper.  ironically i would most likely see the horror within less if they were not "smiling".  i understand the lack of composure part of the equation but it's the sacrilege of the act of that baffles me.

sacrilege ???


those people in those photos are so caught up in appearing the way they THINK others think they should appear that they could never give a natural presention of themselves.  in fact they're so busy trying to pretend at so many things that i think they're most likely too lost to know who they truly are & how that person might appear in a photo.  it's as if they would need to see it up on a movie screen, attempt to absorb it, & then take college courses (with a capital S) on how to fulfill it with of course no refund for failure.  they might not ever be worthy of that "forbidden" landscape or perhaps it could never be more than a superficial or synthetic mask.

impunity should of course only be reserved for royalty.

perhaps i'm being paranoid which is perfect since that's an essential tool in the manifestation of any reality especially when you're dealing with a minion of plank walking fantasy seekers gulping down quarts of repression & unfulfilled dreams.

there's really only 2 types of people in this world.  the fork in that road is drawn through one simple question.  what do you really want to do with your life ??  the larger group needs to sit & think about it for a while.  the smaller group says "i'm doing it".  that group is alive.  the other group is dead or monkeys or sub-humans or perhaps trogolydytes if that sits more politely with you.  you know......far far FAR left on the chart below because true civility really begins with self-awareness & how could one EVER achieve that if they don't even have the balls to do/be what they want ???

so that's why when someone asks "what do you do ??"


my job is Carella.

i'm the CEO (bitch).

know what that means ???

it means no one can tattle on me for being "harsh".

a.k.a. you can't blackball a black ball.

in the words of Ms. Dinsmoor ====> chicka-BOOM








           :: SITE UPDATED ::  Nov 21 2019

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what can i say = LISTEN TO THE SONGS.  push all the short attention span theater shit to the side and LISTEN. music is embedded all over this site.  let the albums & EPs play from start to finish.  they are not just collections of random songs. also my music is for that end of the night nightcap in headphones not background for the party.  i suggest you approach it that way & engage it in that setting and the rest is up to you.


if you are looking for predictable simpleton drivel meant to appease empty Ameri-con trash you are in the wrong place i assure you.  the bulk of your friends list on Facebook will help you out if that is the mirror you seek. click that red link now and get your worthless tacky ass out of here QUICKLY.


i seek no press.  this website is receiving traffic from 100+ countries every month through word-of-mouth only.  there's no Facebook, Twitter, YouTube or any of the other predictable whoring.  besides the United States the traffic has been incredible from Germany, France, Russia, UK, Italy, Australia, Canada, China, Spain, Mexico, Argentina, Brazil, Poland, Hungary, Sweden, Finland, Chile, and The Netherlands.  i want to thank all of you especially along with everyone else for listening, visiting, and whatever else.


my previous releases before the ones linked above are as follows: Chapter One was released May 18th 2013.  the Mrs. Produkt EP was released March 2nd 2013 & Der Schnitt was released February 9th 2013.  please go purchase them & support independence. you can name your price.  if you're broke put in $0 and take it for free with no strings attached.  i do not want your email.  i do not give a fuck about your "like".  i do not want to contact you.  what i want is for you to LISTEN.  click on any album cover to show you where you can download them.  COOL ??????????





BOTTOM FEEDER: THE SOCIALITE was released December 15th 2012.  this was my 6th full length album in 2012.  10 new tracks.


and this ever-evolving collection of covers is always FREE. click her to show you where you can download it now.



music as an industry is going to continue to reside in the gutter until more of you start caring for it properly again.  it's so PURR-fect that the Ameri-con way has sold so many on the notion that it's pointless to drop $10 on music but don't worry about doing the same thing at McDonald's a few times a week for glorified dog food.  that's COMPLETELY normal.


for now i only deal with Bandcamp because unlike iTunes i can keep it donation based.  i also deal with Bandcamp because they are the coolest & best company selling digital music on the web right now and they are aiding the cause not hurting it like iTunes.  PERIOD.  Bandcamp will covert your payment from almost any currency imaginable and you can get better quality downloads from them as well. you're not just helping me you're helping so many others including the audience of any genre outside the pathetic and predictable mainstream industry that is as marginal and washed up as it has ever been.  i can not be more honest than that.


yes this site is 1st and foremost about my music but it is also about many of the other things that i love OR hate and anything else i feel like in between.  if you search through the menu you will find all of my (currently available) releases.  but you will also find some of my paintings & photography.


the Journals & Written Word links in the menu above are loaded with my writing.  i am constantly updating it as well as every other section of this site.


up above in this column check the date of the last update underneath my picture.  it will always be extremely current GUARANTEED.  as part of the audience i know music/band sites for the most part are PAINFULLY BORING, infrequently updated, & lacking content so i hope to present something much more interesting & extensive.  i guarantee that every day you return here you can/will find something new.


i'm a complete hermit by nature so 99% of you will most likely never get to know me in person anyway so here's a virtual part of me instead.