MEMORIES: honestly i was a bit wasted backstage during this performance.  that crowd noise is fake.  gotta love TV. 

anna nicole smith & velvet revolver were there, pamela & tommy lee, michael douglas, kanye, usher, alecia keys, outkast, whoever else.  one of the interesting things to see was how Pamela Anderson ceased to exist the moment Anna Nicole made her entrance.  she had just lost the weight.  she was GIANT.  i saw her flip that switch that she turned on when there was an audience.  suddenly it all made sense to me.  she was our Marilyn complete with the head back now i put on my sexy mouth with one high heeled leg exposed thing she did. she was a true show(wo)man. of course following her around like a puppy was that Howard Stern lawyer guy. 

whitney houston was crack is whacked out of her mind but made an UN-BE-FUCKING-LIEVABLE recovery once that camera was on her. one minute she was freaking the fuck out on some P.A. for a Coke (a-cola) & the next minute she was singing her ass off.  this show was supposed to be the catalyst for her great big comeback but that never came to be because she's a nightmare.  

anyway i gained a new respect for Avril that night.  i just watched this again to see if it was as i remembered & for the most part it is/was.  i kind of felt bad for her because everyone was ignoring her that night.  she's a more than decent singer & can pull it off without the backing track security blanket of many of her peers but unfortunately everyone just treated her like a kid...probably still do...and JESUS is she tiny.  her guitar wasn't plugged in though but i'll give her a pass on that one. 

this was the 1st year the awards were in Las Vegas. They were always held in Monoco but the wife of the president of the awards company that ran these shows & the emmys & whatever else made some drunken joke on stage the year before about wanting to dyke out with the princess of Monaco. she was a cool lady....the drunk one i mean. fuck Monaco & that twat princess if she couldn't take a joke....but going from Monaco to Las Vegas was like going from the palace to the gutter which is probably best. 

i called one of the production manager chicks a cunt (because she was) & she fucking started crying....with this shaky lower lip "you think i'm a cunt?" thing.... i kinda felt bad for a minute....thought maybe i might get gonged until a group of people including Dick Clark's son one of the production company's higher ups came & patted me on the back while cracking up. i found out noone else was a fan either. 

i really liked Usher's limo driver.  he had given me a ride earlier to go pick up some tacos. later i went out back & got stoned with him in the parking lot behind the Thomas & Mack center. he told me Usher was in the car getting blown by a hooker on the way over from the airport only problem is the airport is across the street so he must have (hopefully) needed a little more time. he had supposedly just started dating Naomi Campbell.  i think that lasted about a couple minutes.  wonder why ??

TRUE STORY EVERY FUCKING WORD with a hahafuckin'ha to boot noting that one of the things i've witnessed with my own 2 eyes over the years is that the "stars" like to play the public into believing that everything in the Enquirer is complete fiction when most times it's true or not far from it i.e. facts are stranger than fiction.  at times you can't make this shit up or more like there's no reason to.  they'll come up with something better than what you/i/we could have imagined.  the bad parenting handbook reverberates everywhere regardless of income, background, or media hype.

the rest of the night was 10x's more fun even though the specifics seem to elude me at this point....DAMN i miss that town.  dr feelgood will trade you a prescription pad if you'll just find someone to get him some cocaine on the down low.  what a blur.








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what can i say = LISTEN TO THE SONGS.  push all the short attention span theater shit to the side and LISTEN. music is embedded all over this site.  let the albums & EPs play from start to finish.  they are not just collections of random songs. also my music is for that end of the night nightcap in headphones not background for the party.  i suggest you approach it that way & engage it in that setting and the rest is up to you.


if you are looking for predictable simpleton drivel meant to appease empty Ameri-con trash you are in the wrong place i assure you.  the bulk of your friends list on Facebook will help you out if that is the mirror you seek. click that red link now and get your worthless tacky ass out of here QUICKLY.


i seek no press.  this website is receiving traffic from 100+ countries every month through word-of-mouth only.  there's no Facebook, Twitter, YouTube or any of the other predictable whoring.  besides the United States the traffic has been incredible from Germany, France, Russia, UK, Italy, Australia, Canada, China, Spain, Mexico, Argentina, Brazil, Poland, Hungary, Sweden, Finland, Chile, and The Netherlands.  i want to thank all of you especially along with everyone else for listening, visiting, and whatever else.


my previous releases before the ones linked above are as follows: Chapter One was released May 18th 2013.  the Mrs. Produkt EP was released March 2nd 2013 & Der Schnitt was released February 9th 2013.  please go purchase them & support independence. you can name your price.  if you're broke put in $0 and take it for free with no strings attached.  i do not want your email.  i do not give a fuck about your "like".  i do not want to contact you.  what i want is for you to LISTEN.  click on any album cover to show you where you can download them.  COOL ??????????





BOTTOM FEEDER: THE SOCIALITE was released December 15th 2012.  this was my 6th full length album in 2012.  10 new tracks.


and this ever-evolving collection of covers is always FREE. click her to show you where you can download it now.



music as an industry is going to continue to reside in the gutter until more of you start caring for it properly again.  it's so PURR-fect that the Ameri-con way has sold so many on the notion that it's pointless to drop $10 on music but don't worry about doing the same thing at McDonald's a few times a week for glorified dog food.  that's COMPLETELY normal.


for now i only deal with Bandcamp because unlike iTunes i can keep it donation based.  i also deal with Bandcamp because they are the coolest & best company selling digital music on the web right now and they are aiding the cause not hurting it like iTunes.  PERIOD.  Bandcamp will covert your payment from almost any currency imaginable and you can get better quality downloads from them as well. you're not just helping me you're helping so many others including the audience of any genre outside the pathetic and predictable mainstream industry that is as marginal and washed up as it has ever been.  i can not be more honest than that.


yes this site is 1st and foremost about my music but it is also about many of the other things that i love OR hate and anything else i feel like in between.  if you search through the menu you will find all of my (currently available) releases.  but you will also find some of my paintings & photography.


the Journals & Written Word links in the menu above are loaded with my writing.  i am constantly updating it as well as every other section of this site.


up above in this column check the date of the last update underneath my picture.  it will always be extremely current GUARANTEED.  as part of the audience i know music/band sites for the most part are PAINFULLY BORING, infrequently updated, & lacking content so i hope to present something much more interesting & extensive.  i guarantee that every day you return here you can/will find something new.


i'm a complete hermit by nature so 99% of you will most likely never get to know me in person anyway so here's a virtual part of me instead.